Tame

You need a 'special' someone..so you tell everyone how good the girl must be..(urghh always with the goodie two shoes type), what a bloody innocent mind she should have...AND then....you found me...and decide to change me...the hell?!
YOU acted like you are GOOD enough  but boy...trust me...you are NOT. I hate the smug smile on your face when you said you can tame me..oho..big deal.
Listen here... stop trying to change me into something that I'm not...because you WILL not want a robot as a girlfriend... better yet...maybe I'll be ditching you..todalooo...


I go through guys like money flyin' out their hands
They try to change me but they realize they can't
And every tomorrow is a day I never planned
If you're gonna be my man, understand

Malaysia!

JUST LIKE MALAYSIA!! We are all so different yet still together!

girl.

“You cannot win a woman just the once and be done with it; you have to humiliate yourself again and again.” Unknown Author 

me.

Many people have their own opinions on me. You have to know me to have one about me.

You.

Well, you didn't follow and convince me to be with you now..ey? I guess you don't love me enough to stop me from leaving.
Anyway, I love you.

Some

Torn.

I waited..and waited..for you to tell me the truth.
But you didn't. You said everything was fine when I asked you about it. Even the mellow evening can't sooth the pain you had inflicted.  You denied me the truth. I heard those vile rumours... Luckily I want to hear it from you and you alone can satisfy and fend off the bad feelings that starting to seep into my core. I care for you..i adore you..I give you the space that you insist on having.. But what I've got in returned is more distant...more miles created between us. Did I ever give you reasons not to trust me? Have I ever before meddled with your life? Dictate your decisions? Well, you couldn't be the girl I used to adore. You don't seem to cherish and seem to care about the sweet times we had together. You kick me out from your life without even both of us realised it happened. Time has changed us both so much.

wild bunny and I..

Well, It is a cold night yet soo warm....My bunnie..All these years, the thing I never understand, you understand *I know you didn't do it on purpose tho*. The thing that I couldn't do, no matter how hard I tried, for the longest time... you effortlessly achieve. You just know how to be cute...hahah *delusional*

tik tok tik tok...

Errr..not 2PM "Tik TOk". Sorry to say.
But, something really interesting here i'm about to share...haha.

 CLOCKS
*According to European folklore a person's house can be protected from a vampire attack by stopping the clocks at the time of death..(gee..I guess you have to run for the clock first rather than check on the dead.) Stopping the clock is said to put the corpse into a sort of suspended animation, preventing demonic forces from entering the body until it is ready for burial. (gosh...even clock can be that important..)*

Burn card.

The past might shape the future but it wasn't going to overshadow the present. True?

Jump into the whirlpool of insanity .

If we could keep the innocence of our childhood, maybe that would be the best.
It would have been cool if we don't have to lie about our feelings to protect ourself from those who supposed to care. In retrospect, the more I think it is strange, the more it chains me down.
Comfort over hardship, frivolity over having to apologize with tears. Wouldn't anyone prefer it that way?
 Well, sue me if I prefer to live in a world of imagination where the dragons are real, elves are common place, vampires are just people with special diets and lycanthropes lives next door. Call me a coward if you think about what kind of idiot am I for preferring to use this way on turning my back from this 'big bad world' and your hurting reality...I don't give a fuck.

I see.

Everyone keeps on asking...*Why don't you have a special boyfriend?*
 I start to question myself too...
*Are the boys were not good enough?*
*Not handsome enough?*
*Not smart enough?*

I mulled this over for a while and finally rejected it.
I realized the fault lay with me. I had chosen guys who are safe.
Who wouldn't challenge me emotionally, who were as withdrawn and reserved as I was when it came to the matters of the heart. Perhaps, it was safer that way. Maybe.

strong.

The one who was hurt the most ...
might just have been the one who appeared to be strongest.