avoid I ?

congrats dearie...

Spellbound.

Things that he do...

-took care of me when i'm sick..(horrible coughs..red eyes...no voices..)
*but he pat me slowly..feed me...put a wet cloth on my temple and massaged those sore limbs of mine...
-when I told him i need to go to the toilet...
*he quickly find me one (at past and present) (no matter where we are at...in a car...at the mall...at the R&R...)
*he'll waits outside and he gave me the sweetest smile as he stare at me when i'm finish. (like it was the first time he sees me)

*When I said I'm bored...He will looked me in the eyes and asked *did I bore you out?* (Every time he asked me that ...the answers for it will be *Bukanlaaa Fik.... and I will pout*
He will surely... positively replied me back by asking...*Keyh..Now what doyawana do? Or Where doyawana go?* with utmost enthusiasm...

*He buys me the whole cake (it's vanilla!) once...when i felt like the world hated me.

*We cried together when I'm sad...he hugged me tightly cause he knows it will prevent the hardening of this heart. (err ...every times i faced a problem..i would turned my heart stone cold..hee)
*Thousand of deeds has he willingly invested on me... I know that he just need my love in return.

For 6 years...he treated me the same...
No wonder this two years without him seems empty..
to the extent that everyone i'd met...i would compare the likes of them.
And those who have his qualities... subconsciously i bring myself near them.
 No longer will I deny...the ache for him.

Now.
I admit.
I am spellbound by him.
Fikree Najib.

forever is a long time mate!

get away.

The feeling is back.
God I wish I will never again experienced such things.
I need to set my heart straight again..
I need to strengthen the wall yet again.
no more no more...

What's done is done.

*Never feel this lonely before*

follow me~

It beats so strong like a melody
Where do I belong?
You keep spinning me round, round, round
Don't want to come down, down, down
Love to play along in this harmony
Hear them sing our song
You keep making me dance, dance, dance
We got them in a trance, trance, trance
-Nicola roberts-

I heart you

punctuation...

letting myself sway~

      Wish can waltz myself into his arms...and with his lead...we moves letting the world go...<3

yayay!

See you there sayang!

Why did i bother to remember?

                          

I think i just made myself sad by remembering.

Salt

I woke up and find my hands have a strange marks. Starting to remember.
I dreamed of walking along the sand, picking up ring-pulls and shards of coloured glass, filling my hands and squeezing, seeing blood...spotting a trail. Knowing it should be hurting. But what does hurt feel like?


Walking again out into the sea, knowing the water is climbing up my jeans, into my pockets, creeping up to my waist, my breast, my neck. But what does wet feel like?


I'm hundred miles away from my senses. Salt wind in my face. Salt water running from my eyes and into my mouth. Something awful had been done. But I'm too numb to feel the hurt.

“You don’t need to explain your dreams. They belong to you.”

Paulo Coelho

Katya.

*I think I missed Katya*

egomaniac...

smallness.

Tanya's bottom lip begins to feel heavy, there are tears smarting her eyes.
Standing still for that flat hand sting that feels like a bite and a grazing.
Tanya feels so small, so small...
She said...You're bad girl.You ruin everything.Everything. Eyes of hatred bores into Tanya's small eyes.

ABCDEFGHI love books...hee

grrrr

Messy me.

I don't want to drive myself crazy by expecting too much...or trying to achieve impossible perfection! Let life be messy and imperfect today!!! (follow my own life quote)

Peppy !

know yourself.

Because

who am i to disagree...

busted!

It was a
Dark and Stormy Night

They were 

together in the House.

Just the two of them.

It was a cold, dark, stormy night.

The storm had come quickly 

and

each time the thunder boomed he watched her jump.

She looked 

across the room and admired his strong appearance...and

wished that he would take her in his arms, 

comfort her and protect her

from the storm.

Suddenly, 

with a pop, the power went out... 

She screamed...

He raced to the sofa 

where she was cowering.

He didn't hesitate to pull her into his arms.

He knew this was a forbidden union and

expected her to pull back.

He was surprised when she didn't resist 

but instead clung to him. 

The storm raged on...

They knew it was wrong...

Their families would 

never understand.

So consumed were they in their 

FEAR that they heard no opening of doors

... just the 

faint click of a camera......

Air head.

                                                          If women?

I need my rest...

cry baby.

but?

BUT

Because

the same yet not.

cheer up!

Howdy gorgeous!

Even very attractive people sometimes have ugly personality quirks...keep this in mind when you meet someone who seems to good to be true. Just because something glitters does not mean it is gold!  Some people turn on the charm when they want to mask character deficiencies.True?

stay for good

together

being with him...

making me dreams...

of having a very bright future together~

needed...

nera's day!

Happy birthday Nera!