Papercut.

Just like that?

Errm....What if, for example...
you create a different pain, in order to replace an unbearable one?
If you do that...don't you feel like you could forget the pain even for a moment?
Of course there's no way you could erase the pain that consumed your lone soul ...just like that.. Even if you cut your wrist and watch the blood drips heavily onto the blue tiles...
Watch with blank eyes at the numb and cold hand that starting to turn blue under the fluorescent lights.
Lay your head back and shut your eyes tight when the heart constricted again.
You sick of the tension. You want to be someplace else.
Well, i'm wish to stay in my own world of sanctuary too.
But i realised that i have to live with the same pain even though i found my little piece of heaven in this deceitful world.

This I dedicated to urban dysfunctional offspring.

Torn.

I waited..and waited..for you to tell me the truth.
But you didn't. You said everything was fine when I asked you about it. Even the mellow evening can't sooth the pain you had inflicted.  You denied me the truth. I heard those vile rumours... Luckily I want to hear it from you and you alone can satisfy and fend off the bad feelings that starting to seep into my core. I care for you..i adore you..I give you the space that you insist on having.. But what I've got in returned is more distant...more miles created between us. Did I ever give you reasons not to trust me? Have I ever before meddled with your life? Dictate your decisions? Well, you couldn't be the girl I used to adore. You don't seem to cherish and seem to care about the sweet times we had together. You kick me out from your life without even both of us realised it happened. Time has changed us both so much.

The best.

We live in a lie.

I see him wearing his very best shirt. I see the smile that had been rarely formed. It is so unlike him.

I know the reason that made his eyes sparkle. He wants to see her. But..she doesn't want to see him.

He doesn't know that. I see he tries to call her...and still he doesn't realize he had been rejected. I see him lying through his teeth about the frustration that eating him inside. One by one...starting to get out from his life. Yet, he does not realise it. I try to tell him to stop. Stop hurting anyone that matters. But my words failed me...us.

So...we both fell. Deep into a catacomb of silentness...despair plague us like a disease. A part of me felt that one way or the other, we wouldn't last long. If it has to end anyway, it might be easier to just drift apart like this..This way neither of us will get hurt too deeply. Could this be for the best?

...

I'm standin' on the bridge

I'm waitin' in the dark

I thought that you'd be here by now

There's nothing but the rain

No footsteps on the ground

I'm listening but there's no sound

Isn't anyone tryin' to find me?

Won't somebody come take me home?

It's a damn cold night

I'm tryin' to figure out this life

Won't you take me by the hand?

Take me somewhere new

I don't know who you are

But I'm, I'm with you

I'm with you

Hmm hmm hmm

I'm looking for a place

I'm searching for a face

Is anybody here I know?

'Cause nothing's going right

And everything's a mess

And no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone tryin' to find me?

Won't somebody come take me home?

It's a damn cold night

I try to figure out this life

Won't you take me by the hand?

Take me somewhere new

I don't know who you are

But I'm, I'm with you

I'm with you

Yea yea

Oh, why is everything so confusing?

Maybe I'm just out of my mind

Yea eee yeah, yea eee yeah

Yea yee yea, yea eee yeah,yeah

It's a damn cold night

Tryin' to figure out this life

Won't you take me by the hand?

Take me somewhere new

I don't know who you are

But I'm, I'm with you, yea

I'm with you, yea

Take me by the hand

Take me somewhere new

I don't know who you are

But I'm, I'm with you, yea

I'm with you, yea

Take me by the hand

Take me somewhere new

I don't know who you are

But I'm, I'm with you, oh

I'm with you

I'm with you

Fall hard.

She fell so deep

She fell so fast

There was never a time for her to think

Not even a moment to spare for her to breathe

She can only feel

She can only love

She can only accept.